Today I stood up in front of my Identity class and testified of what the Lord has done in my heart through the class. So I figured that I would share it with you too 🙂
About two months ago we learned about Family of Origin and how there are generational blessings and generational curses that are passed down from generation to generation. On my race I walked through deliverance from generational strongholds that came from my biological fathers bloodline. It left me free which is amazing! But there was still some bitterness in my heart for the man who never wanted to know his daughter.
In our identity class we drew out our family tree and wrote down traits that our family members have and it was eye opening. I began to see patters and behaviors that pointed me to my own patterns and traits, but I think most of all I was able to see the patters of the men in my life and it made so much sense. It explains why I have a hard time trusting men. My own issues with being a product of a single parent home started to come up and I wanted desperatly to just stuff them all away and move on with my life but I knew that my time here at CGA would be wasted if I chose to not deal with the things hindering me from living a full life.
I sat with the Lord (multiple times) and cried aloud to him my sorrows and shouted “ITS NOT FAIR” at the top of my lungs.
He agreed that it was not fair but that it was real and that I needed to get it out and by me releasing it from my lips I was in turn releasing all of my bitterness and rage towards my father.
Once that bitterness and rage was released I was then able to intercede for my father who does NOT know the Lord (yet). I sing out in the Spirit and intercede for him and I stand on my faith that one day he will know the Lord. Not only will he know him but he will wake up and praise God every day with gladness.
“…To comfort all who mourn, to console those who mourn in Zion, to give them beauty for ashes, the oil or joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they may be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.” Isaiah 61:3-4
One day my earthly father will know the love of Jesus Christ and I will fight in prayer until that day comes. I will rejoice now for what is coming.
