Trying to explain what my time at CGA is like has been a little tricky. Many supporters don’t always understand the point of a program like CGA. I hope that I have been updating my blog a newsletter with information that both helps you to understand what I am doing and what God is doing in me.
CGA is a space for young people who have recently gone on trips like the World Race or Passport to come and dive deeper into their callings. In order to lead other people anywhere, especially to the cross I need to know who I am and how to lead myself to the cross.
The past month has been full of revelation and insight into who I am and how God has wired me. This helps me to better understand why I do the things that I do and what my triggers are to sin.
I know that I am an Enneagragm type 4 wing 5, ISFP, with the redemptive gifting of a Prophet with Mercy being passed down from a previous generation. My DisC profile is Harmony/Accuracy with a mask of Control.
What does all of that mean????
My sin patten is envy and I always want to be special to and known by other people. I am prone to feel high highs and low lows. Depression comes very easily for me, so do things like pride, passiveness, jealously, manipulation, and malicious behaviors. ooooh….ouch!
I am an individual and always want to be known and understood.
I hear from the Lord and I feel things very deeply in the spiritual realm and I am called to speak out what I feel. My emotions were meant to point me towards what needs to be addressed in people and atmospheres.
I also know that my story brings freedom, and I am place of refuge for others to go through hard things. I have been called to create safe places for others to break off strongholds from the enemy and walk them into relationship with the Father.
I am rocking that introvert life, and suspect that I always will and I am learning what it means to maintain balance so that I am filled up and rested. I have a love hate relationship with order. I like ordered chaos 😉
I am super high harmony and I mask my tenderness with fast paced decision making and busy schedules so that I do not feel things. Because feeling things can sometimes be a tough gig.
I am learning what I like and what I do not like and where I am strong and where I am weak so that I can bring others into my space and work well to bring the wholeness of Christ to communities and churches everywhere. I am passionate about coming into spaces, seeing what the people in those spaces need, and creating something that will cater to them and build them up. (Harmony/Accuracy)
In order for me to be able to do that I need to learn how to do that for myself. This is just ONE month at CGA. If you haven’t heard from me much it is because I have been crying, sifting through my emotions, and learning why I do the things that I do.
Thank you for your encouragement and blessings!
